It feels like you are doing the right thing. When you see or suspect wrongdoing by someone, against the public interest, or against a trusting and vulnerable person or class of people.
Then it feels strange when your immediate supervisors dodge, deflect, or attack you.
Then it feels shocking when you realize that so many people have so much to lose by outing the abuse, that they will actually prefer to silence you than to fix the problem.
Then it feels scary, when they turn the tables and try to silence or eliminate the problem, instead of facing it and admitting the defects.
Then it becomes downright frightening when it becomes clear that no matter who you contact, which boss, regulator, ombudsman, government, they can all find numerous reasons for, "not getting involved", if the opponent is a powerful and dangerous opponent.
Then it becomes anger at so many who maintain they are there to serve and protect, and yet they refuse to serve and are afraid to protect, lest they become caught in the retaliation.
Then it becomes confusing, to realize that everything you were taught, told, and believed was just talk, and nothing else. That wrong is often considered "right", if it makes you rich enough.
That right is often wrong, if it affects people in positions of power and influence.
Then it feels as if your world is off kilter, that either you are upside down, or your world has turned itself upside down. It feels as if you are out of control, and you need to make some corrections.
Then, like a car where someone has reversed the steering controls, so that left turns take you to the right and vice versa, each and every move you make in this upside down world turns out to be wrong. Each move you make actually makes the out of control situation more out of control.
Then you start to do damage to:
Relationships.
Families
Spouses.
Children.
Finances.
Mental health.
Physical health.
Career.
Motivation.
Medication.
Addiction.
White collar crime is a crime of violence. It affects so many in so many ways.
(Kent Shirley took his own life this past x-mas eve, after making allegations about his former employer, a Mr Mallard of Assante Investments. He was subject to "police state" treatment at the hands of the legal staulking horses sent after him....and those who live on.
No help, nor action has so far some from any provincial securities omission, nor the RCMP commercial crime department. No one has shown the will or the willingness to simply investigate and or enforce securities law.
For those needing further reading on the history and retaliatory treatment of whistleblowers, see the following well documented public or corporate cases:
Gomery
Enron
Worldcom
Environmental Protection Agency
Federal Aviation Administration
Food and Drug Administration
Hooker Chemical
Dow Chemical
DDT, Agent Orange
Morton Thiokol (Challenger space shuttle explosion)
Ford Pinto (exloding gas tank)
General Motors (exploding gas tanks)
General Motors (Corvair)
Love Canal
Frank Serpico and the NYPD
Karen Silkwood and the nuclear power industry
Firestone Tire
Tobacco Industry
Cassandra Rowley and the FBI
Haliburton
